It involves turning around

With much to worry and rush in the midst of all the assignments and tests, I still can find time to laze and watch series. I think I tend to take things for granted. I like to slowly appreciate time at the very last minute. But I admit I do study while watching. It is not something I am proud of but it is something I am comfortable with. I have been doing this for a few years now and I am trying to change!

The essentials

We have our own clicks, own group, own comfort zone. But sometimes, too much of something can lead to you wanting to run away or at the moment, not wanna be near it. Have you ever had people complaining about one thing but still wanting to do it. Have you ever seen people desperately trying to do things to please other people just to fit in? I am sure when we were young, a majority of us do it (not that we should ever blame them for it). Trust me I had my fair share of all these. I don’t deny it. But as we grow older, we know who will stay and who will leave. We keep those precious to us near us but at the same time, maintain whatever relationship we have with other people. I don’t like being tied down to only a few people, I know it is bad but I like meeting people along the way. It is always good to know different kind of people, learn to love new people and continue loving the ones we have.

It is right to always put others before you? Currently I am starting to dislike people who say one thing and do another (except the fact that I said I will go lecture but I end up sleeping in). If you are going to complain about them, complain and don’t do whatever you are suppose to; it pisses me off. It is like you are telling me this and quietly you do that. I know I tend to that last time but that was before I found out that it was freaking irritating! So, stop it. I am not going to do it anymore. So next time think twice if you wanna complain about something I swear I will just turn away and you can babble to yourself. I wanna avoid from dramas. Can’t blame me ,can’t you?

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Today I decided to wear shorts with leggings. I am so in love with shorts and leggings now. I wanna get new colours. OH YES, my shopping ban will be over in a day! But I quite lazy to shop. Never shop for a month, somehow the hands or no longer itchy. But too early to say. I might go crazy again. Someone wanna start “NO SERIES BAN” for me, having exams being quite near. Hmmmmm. That I don’t think I can live without. I have to have my comp in front of me everyday. I need to hear music to go to bed. I plug in my ipod to sleep every night. The boifren calls me weird but trust me, weird is not anywhere near me.

The weather here is getting colder each day. It is not even winter and yet we are all wrapped up in thick jackets and scarfs and of course boots. I wonder how would winter be like? Speaking of winter, I will be getting my coloured contact lens soon!!!!!!! plus my MAC stuffs!! and my harddisk!!! OK, I am getting out of control. I need to chill. I just drank coke. Sugar rush sial. Someone please stop me.

I went thru some pictures and I realise Ernest can be really random. He can be the most pervertish ass alive, annoying boi in the room, the most random blabber around, an emo kid and one that cannot control his temper;  but yet he can be nice at times. AT times not MOST times. He is entertaining and he can be sweet at times la. But still.

It is so hard to even take a descent picture

His ass

Beruk sial

Oh a random note, I was hungry. So I stole something from the kitchen.

Choc and Honeycomb.

How fattening.

Before I go, one big big big shout out to a very special mate who I grew up with when I was dancing in my flower costume back in standard 2.

I dare you to spot me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR IAN TEH WEI YEN!

OK, I am off to continue watching Supernatural! I am in bad crave for horror and this the best I can get. So leave me alone unless you have horror shows to offer.

Nah, I’m just kidding.

Have a great day everyone!!

Hugs.

mC

Her & Him, Her & Her, Him & Him

Update me please, somoene.

Couples that are both guys, are they not allowed to be seen in public or what? I know some people do think conservatively but we should all give them a chance. There was once I sat beside this couple who were both guys and they were making out. Some people may find it wrong but I think it is perfectly fine. There is nothing wrong with guys getting together. It is the same a female getting together with a male, just that the female is not in the picture. Today I was on the train and I saw these two guys cuddling with each other. I could see the looks on the other passengers. WTF . Let them be. They are not doing any harm to any of you. They are just being themselves.

After they boarded the train; a few stops later, a group of blokes entered. The couple was so afraid of them that they stood up and sat upright. They decided that it might be a bad idea to cuddle in front of them. What is so wrong with them. Look at what the unwanted and disgusted looks of people done to them. They are so afraid of people’s perception and their reactions that they are afraid of us. Please. Respect them. I find no harm in just letting them be.

Scene 1 : With the blokes on board, sitting straight and upwards

Scene 2: Right after the blokes left, back to cuddling.

I think they are somewhat scared that they will somehow get beaten up if they were seen like that.

On a random note, I saw a dead pigeon the street a few days ago. Being naive, I stopped and I decided to take a picture of the poor dead pigeon. Cars were passing me by looking at me as tho I did a crime taking the picture. I bet the poor pigeon was trying to fly. But before it could flap open its wings, GONE! I don’t mean to sound cruel but yeah.

Since we are talking about animals and birds, the cat outside my house is freaking fat. I bet many of you know how much I hate cats and this one belongs to one of my neighbour. Somehow the cat is not allowed into the house. I now understand why the cat is freaking fat. Winter. Winter. Winter. Half of the time I see the cat, I cannot help but walk fast passed it. I just hate cats. I swear if the cat chases me, I won’t be suprise if i cry.

I am so in love with my doggie and Ryan’s doggie, FIFI. The dog is freaking adorable. When I went over during easter. the dog waited outside the toilet for me to play with it. The dog seeks attention from everyone and I really don’t mind giving it all the attention she needs , but then, i give most of my attention to the dearest . Anyhoo, Ryan’s mother will always have this cane she carries with her to remind FIFI to not behave mischievously. He has 4 dogs and the only dog that has a bell is FIFI. They need to know her whereabouts before she starts her reign of terror. All in all, she is my fave dog in his house. Why? She is the only one out of the 4 that makes me feel welcome and is one of the most active dogs I have known. FIFI, can you ask Mr Ryan to bring you to AUST?

Her in action. Ganas sial

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but she is sooooo adorable.

Today in the evening, I took Py out for dinner. We had dinner near Crown. We decided to eat there since it was nearer to the train station. No diff. We had to run for the train and bus . The bus services for most areas end early on Sunday. Lousy connex, venture or whatever. She was quite shocked when I told her where we were going but I insisted. So we end up eating and then running for the train and continued running for the bus . I miss having a car to go around. I don’t need one, I just miss having one.

How did we end the night? Running for the train and of course cam-whoring. Here are some of the pictures.

This morning, I received something from the boifren that made me cry. Most of the times, when someone suprises me with gifts or flowers, I realise I don’t tear. I don’t remember tearing when I receive any gifts be it birthdays, anniversaries, random givings, notes, etc. Correct if I am wrong k. I remember only crying when I leave something or someone leaves me (studies, overseas trip, etc). This time, I read the note and I cried so badly. I think I can only cry to touching notes or smses that melts my heart. I was crying in front of the bf. Not cool . I looked crappy . But I was happy and I cried joyfully. I am forever thankful.

The best part is we love each other as an individual not as a boyfriend or a girlfriend; it is more like how I love my friends and family. But he is someone special, someone who teaches me to change for the better, someone who teaches me to be patient, someone who teaches me to love others for who they are,someone who opens up my mind to things I never knew I knew existed, someone who teaches me to always be true to myself . Love need not need to be only for couples, it may exist amongst friends and close companions. Ryan is also my companion, my best friend. Thank you my dear Ryan.

I am going off to bed, I have no idea why I am feeling sleepy. I need to stop pigging out.Have a great week everyone! Oh no, I think we are getting back our ABF marks this week. sigh. Why la so fast. Can’t the uni chill? We just wanna have fun and a stress free period before the exams. Hopefully nothing bad goes wrong. *cross fingers*

“Feeling alive all over again .”

I need some zzzz.

Nights,

mC

The thoughts of you and me

I accidentally deleted my post before this!!!!!!

I won’t be talking about the same thing, but will try to upload the pictures.

The pictures will take forever to load since my quota exploded to 142%. So wanna see pictures, go and see them in Poh Yee’s facebook. Sorry. 2 girls and 12 gb, will never be satisfied. And the best part is we are waiting for the month to be renewed so we can download shows again. See how greedy we can be?

See the exploded quota? We need a higher amount of limit.

I finally watched Bourne Ultimatum. Slow but who cares. I like to take my time to read old books and watch old movies. Now I know what led to the show winning so many oscars. The movie is seriously good. When I watched the oscars, and with Transformers not winning, I cursed and starting thinking, ” What is so good about the show??” , not realising that the show was actually superb. I should not say things something before knowing what it is. I skipped all and watched the recent one yesterday. Damn potong stim. Now I feel like watching more shows.

I declined Poh’s offer to go down to the city. I really felt like staying home. I like my alone time! It allows me to relax and catch up on movies and series that I tend to drag to watch. I feel like baking, but there is still the remainder of cake outside on the table (poh’s bday cake). I think I really like to bake during my alone time. But since there is still cake, I shall not bake. Jon and the rest will be coming soon to teman me and makan. I know the real intention of the purpose here….. it is to eat . Just eat.

On a random note, I became uptight about my room’s condition today. It was quite messy since poh’s birthday and i decided to just vacuum it and tidy it just a lil bit. The poor mother has been complaining about my room, having too much things,overloading one compartment with items and throwing things everywhere. Mothers are neat freaks but my mother is a neat freak and a she scolds real good. I will be seeing mummy soon! and forgetting Darren, Mei Wen and of course the dearest! Skiing is going to fun. RYAN TAN, u are so coming along with us. Will be going Sydney during the first week of July to meet up with Mummy and Aunty Jen. Then it will be back to uni. Sigh. Sigh. Sigh. It will be my final semester if I dun gagal. *cross fingers*

I am craving for shoes. I wanna go Singapore to shop so badly. Madly in love with their shoes. Much much better than Malaysia’s. Sorry. I know I have alot of shoes but shoes make me happy and I already limited space for my shoes. I wanna go shopping but my dare with Ian is not over yet. A few more days. I am going to prove Ian and the boifren wrong . I am not a shopaholic and I can control. I get things at the end of the day you know. Anything I want! I am already eyeing a few things. Greedy sial. I am thinking of my future. I need to save and that is my main priority now. I just got part of my pay and I am happy. The money goes into the tabung. My tabung; for a rainy day, not shopping day.

Anyway,

HAPPY 21-st BIRTHDAY MISS KWONG,

You know my style of life.

You leave me alone when I am emo knowing that is what I always want.

You know what I like to eat and you know what I cannot eat.

You always try to be supportive and yet sarcastic at times.

You are stubborn (duh, obviously!)

You layan me when I am randomly talk nonsense to you.

You are loving yet damn chat thick face

You ask me to emo along with u in the Caufield bus.

You work in the same place, stay in the house, go the same uni, enrolled in the same course.

Life has never been the same without you (susah, tau!)

I lub you loads.

We will always be itu-tiga-perkataan

(not les you prevs)

My journey so far with her. More to come.

HAPPY TAMBAH SATU BULAN MY DEAREST,

You have been always there for me when I am sad

You always try to cheer me up when I am feeling down

You always try to make me study

You are patient and kind

You are supportive and loving

You call me names and make fun of me

You still make me blush whenever I am with you

I thank MIH for the greatest chance of all

I heart you banyak banyak my dearest.

Can’t wait to see you!!!

Ok, now I am off to layan the Su Yen and watch Surf’s up. Don’t say I am slow, or I will kick you. Tomorrow will be bringing Poh Yee out. Just the both of us. She rejected my offer asking me not to spend on her but I finally made her say yes by making hell loads of noise! Oh, this is for the both of us

Renee. Michelle

It sounds like we are couple. wtf

Ok, I am going off. Before I go, have a great day tomorrow everyone! I think I need to eat something, my stomach is making the noise.

“I never liked you, even when I tried to.”

HAHAHA, addicted to the song with above lyrics in it. Damn straight forward.

Nights,

mC

When someone thinks it is not right

I wanted to go down to the beach so badly to enjoy the sun

But..

the weather is becoming worse each day, colder once the evening start. Damn.

I miss wriggling my toes on the sand.

Upsetnya aku hari ini.

Abf today did not go the way I expected. George Wong conned us. Super kao conned us.

“Who think the paper was easy?” – As asked by  Dr George Wong

“The paper was easy right?!” – As proclaimed by Dr Tan Ting Yan

Well, at least the paper was over. No more abf until finals!

Syoknya aku.

Ok, the topic today is about Karma. Do you believe that what you do others will eventually come back to you? Do you believe that what you do to people will eventually get back to you? I know I have kena-ed once before. No one is perfect. Sometimes we act stupidly or we act what is to be believed the right thing at that time without realizing the consequences of our actions. Trust me, a whole lot of people around me and me been given a dose of ours own medicine. And sometimes, we learn from it and grow. Sometimes it comes to us when we least expect it, then only realizing that we have done the very same thing before.

Don’t play with Karma. It has never been good and it will never be. Seriously don’t.

But then again, some people are just lucky and manage to avoid karma. Lucky asses.

SIgh. It is the time of the month where my table will be flooded with papers, opened books, pens, highlighters, and forever having music blast into my ears. It is the time where we face our assessments – be it mid sems, assignments and tests. Once this phase is over, it is then time for us to sit for our FINALS.

F.I.N.A.L.S.

This Friday is Anzac day. Means it is a holiday for us but it is not diff to me cause on that day I do not have any classes. I technically have classes on Tuesday and Wednesday…. well a lecture on Thursday and Friday. but Friday’s lecture is undependable upon.  Paid the uni good money to let me sit at home and lepak. Bravo. But some lecturers and tutors are to die for. Their knowledge and their prestige in terms of reputation are to die for. I envy some of them who has achieved so much. They are just killing time now and poor them. They are to face us students every single day.

On a random note, I looked back at some pictures and vidoes of Power Rangers on Youtube. Why? Cause Nelson calls me the Red Ranger. I used to be a tomboy in my school when I was young. I had boy hair cut and I used to be very cheeky along with my gfs. I used to go crazy over power rangers. Not missing a single episode of the show. I remember the movies, the towel I still have at home, the mug that someone broke a long time ago, my little toy robot that I will use to fight with my bro, my book that I use to cut things out from. Sigh. The show now is not the same as before. The characters have changed and the storyline sucks.

Me: Red Ranger a.ka. Jason

Poh: Yellow Ranger a.ka. Trini

Nel: Green Ranger a.k.a Tommy

Jon: Blue Ranger a.ka. Billy

Vui Ping: Pink a.ka. Kimberly

Raghav: Black Ranger (i think its rather obvious why!) a.ka. Zack.

Ok. I know it is lame but I am running out of ideas to type. I blame it on ABF. I spend today and yesterday stressing over calculations but none of them came out. What a waste.

The picture was for FA, I did not take any pictures while I was studying ABF.

Messy nia.

Oh and a very important thing before I leave, my toe is black! I hit something hard and now it is blue black, on the inside!!! I never realiaze how clumsy I I can be till I saw my black toe. I know it is gross but kesian me k. My poor middle toe. Hopefully it goes away soon, cause I am too grossed out to even look at my own toe.

The poor middle toe.

Ok, the freaking internet is taking ages! Quota exploded a few days ago. 2 girls, 12 GB. Not enough. I am off to bed. Tomorrow I have to work and yes, then PARTY! Someone special is turning 21! My dearest darling!

Ok, nights people!

Hugs.

mC

It has never been this late

A junior asked me to help her with business law. BUSINESS LAW, PEOPLE. I did that subject 2 years ago and I remembered nuts about the subject. To make things worst, her business law was for NON BUSINESS STUDENTS. Bravo. But I tried my best to help her. She sounded really lost and really scared that she might fail sub. Guess what? I went tot he extend of finding the standards online and reading her lecture slides. I cannot bear to hear her like that. Man, I am a sucker.

I just love Dean Bao. I know I complain about him alot, it is just because,just because he checks my work everyweek! Well not last week. He eyes were sore. But truthfully speaking, he is a good tutor. He knows what is lazy students need and he teaches from a student’s perspective. Well, another few months of him and I won’t be seeing him anymore. My timetable came out yesterday and I am pissed. My last paper is 13 days after my 3rd paper. Who in the world is smart enough to do that?!!!

Sorry but I am not giving out my seat number.

But look at Monash’s decision for my Property paper.

But on the bright side, someone really special is coming really soon. *hint**hint*

Anyway, I was just thinking how fast time flies! I am in my third year now. I still remember me running on the school track, going nuts during mufy, having prefectorial meetings, eating lunch 10 minutes before recess and lunch, going to the toilet in a groups, doing sport checks, hating my principal, scolding kids on the field, sleeping over at may and lee’s place, sleeping over at poh’s place, sleeping over at yee lyn’s place, sleeping over at Su’s place, sleeping over at loris’s place, everyone sleeping over my place, my surprise by the girls…. basically the list goes on. And now I am here in Aust actually having made to decide how will i spend my life. Sadness tau. I don’t want to think about what the future has install for me. I wanna take it slowly each day enjoying life and company along the process. I like the fact that I am able to see everyone everyday and that I don’t have to get up early for work. Sucks being a grown up. Thank God I am not 21 yet. I am still 20. Officially still 20. Young at heart and will always be.

It is great that that people we love are still around us but sooner or later we have to go our separate ways and live in separate ways and bla bla bla. Wtf. I don’t like change and I want to keep all bonds I have. And I mean all bonds. Be it my enemies or my friends. Emo nia. I hate being emo. I want to be happy. I woke up feeling happy and I am still happy but just a thiny whiney ity bit emo.

And, today I was extra happy but sad that my brownie is almost finishing.

Before

After

I think I should bake more. I wanna bake more often and be more feminine, not so ganas like how people see me. I wanna be sweet! I can be sweet. I wanna try! I will be more girly girl. Well, slowly I think. But I am a nice girl rite? Actually, I have no comment.

I want a MAC. MAC.MAC. Sotong wants me to achieve my first million in 4 years time. Any comments? With life so hectic. Eventho if I were to work my ass off, I am not sure if I can make that in 4 years time. Well, can time pass slower for me so I don’t have to reach 25 soon. Thank you.

Everything is gone before you even realize it.

Before I end my post, I have a special shoutout to someone really really special.

You always try to make me smile when I was down.

You try to make sure I am all right all the time (even when we were in KPMG).

You will never let anyone hurt me.

You have been helpful in all my study needs.

You are patient with me.

You always try to make time for me even if it was just meeting up for lunch.

You try to make me go to lectures and you try to make them funny when they are actually boring.

You would always try to make my life easier.

You would tell me to chill everytime I have law-panic attacks.

You would always make fun of me and Tat Wei.

You have been instructed by Tat Wei to look after me.

You are one heck of a brother to me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR JASON B,

and thank you for everything you have ever done for me.

I am always grateful.

and no, that is not me. It is Su Wen. I stole this off facebook

and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR TONG YUJIN!

ok, I am off to bed. Too much excitement and emoness for one day! Tomorrow I have to face my dearest Dean Bao. The boifriend cannot stop making fun of the name. No idea why. My boi is lame. Real lame. Nyek Nyek. More birthdays coming up! More people are turning 21!

…. and I am still in my 20-ties.

Best sial.

Nights.

Love,

mC

Currently listening to: 20 Good Reasons.

What time is it?

It is definitely time for me to study. I need to sit and study for my ABF test on the 23rd!

i.a.m.s.o.d.e.a.d

Anyhoo, I don’t know why, I just don’t know why. My phone is a bit cacat. Some people claimed that they call me, but I cannot receive any calls. Sorry to those that tried to call me. I think it is much safer if you msg me. I don’t know what is wrong. Maybe it is because half the time my phone hangs on me. SO MSG ME ONLY, I mean for now until I find out the problem.

On another issue, I was talking to Yen Shan yesterday while we were waiting for Pris to get baptised. He said he is not a strong christian. Don’t get me wrong. I love God and I am ever blessed to have him walk with me as I journey on life. But somehow. somwehere. I am not a strong devoted Christian. I cannot be like Mel, Hui Li, Peggen, Jason and the rest of the UL. They are passionate and they are committed. I am more laid back and I tend to enjoy life abit to much. Anyway, CAMP! CAMP! Go if you have the chance. It is good. Sadly, I am am to pick between CAMP or Hillsong and I chose HILLSONG!!! HILLSONG!!!!

Yesterday I was out at the city the whole day and I decided not to stay over (thanks pris for the offer and see I told I am fine, PY) and wanted to come home. We had Indian cause itu Kat craved for curry! (btw, she is not fat! You are not fat KAT).Grrrr. We decided to go back Pris’s place and chill cause I cannot shop. The girls made me walk on the road instead of the sidewalk and they kept talking to me not letting me turn my head left or right to see yummy delicious clothes and bags. Wtf.

I was wondering if you could tell if someone is HOT eventho she does not dress revealingly. I was asking the bf, the bf said eventho you may wear as decent as can be, you are able to guess how the person looks like (body wise). I know this is a topic that is a bit off but yesterday there was this girl who wore super short shirts and her top looked like it was going to fall off anytime soon. Oh and she wore boots along with it. She wore thick make up which I really didn’t like. She looked like a sweet girl tho that does not need all those. It kinna makes your face goes all cacat. I stop wearing foundation, blusher and all the nonsense d. I scared my face rosak. I only wear eyeliner and sometimes concealer( I hardly wear them now tho) powder and gloss whenever I go on outings. I only believe that foundations, blushers, mascara are only meant for special occasions.

But

Everyone has the right to do anything they want. I was just stating what I see and how I feel. No one has to be offended by the above statement. Everyone is welcome to dress and paint their face however they like. I don’t mind. I love people for their inside not their outside. I realize now I only tell a handful of people that I super trust with my issues in life. I don’t want other people to know about my personal life. Those that are close to me, you all know who you are (I think I like to use this sentence and I use it too often).

What did we do?

Girl talk. Cam whore. Ate cake. Ate Ice cream. Watched tv.

My computer is a bit slow so only a few pictures will be posted up.

One with Susan.

Susan left to finish her assignment.

So there were 4.

The breath taking view from Pris’s place.

I freaking miss QV.

It was a blessing and an honour to see Pris get baptised. I remembered mine. Tammy was there holding my towel. I came out shivering. I realize how happy I was to see her get baptised. Getting baptised is a special thing and Tammy, I am so glad that you became a part of it eventho you were interested in ANDREW who thought you were a freaking Jap. Seirously.

The old pris( as claimed by her)

A whole new person who will never view life the same ever again.

Decided to come home and bake something. My hands were itchy! ITCHY! I decided to bake Brownies. Thank God it came out nicely. I was so afraid that I might have to throw the thing into the bin once it was baked. Luckily there were no burnt sides and irregular shapes on the cake. Baking should be come my regular routine. Yeah right, as if I have time.

The outcome.

Today is Sunday! SUNDAY suppose to have nice bright warm sunshine. But it is dark gloomy and scary outside. Nah, I am exaggerating. It is quite cold today but it is actually SUNNY, so people if you are heading out please wear a jacket or something. The weather was so nice that i slept till 12 plus. Cheryl kept msging me to go for Dim Sum. I couldn’t get up. Sorry dear, will make up to ya one day. We play mahjong k! My fingers are itchy now. swt. Thought of heading back to bed but decided not to. I wanna be an early person for once. Thank you. I deserve a pat on the head *pats head*

I am off to watch supernatural. I have cravings for horror.

Oh, and to wake up the boyfriend who is suppose to to be studying for his exam in May.

p/s: I watched 2 movies and now I am talking to Su Yen. Lecture slides are in front of me and I AM TRYING MY BEST!

Have a great day everyone!

Take care.

Love,

Mc

Currently listening to: Lost in space

The better things in life.

Thank you everyone for your all your comforting words a few days back but I am fine now. I refuse to read back whatever I wrote in case I start tearing again. Well, it is not like everyday we get to comfort someone, don’t we? *wink*. I did not go for the Ksubi thingy. Sadness huh? I was working the whole afternoon. What did I do after that?

No, I did not stone the whole day.

Ate my ta pau. Scold the Su Yen for shopping. Watched an hour of Simpsons. Watched Friends. Watched Supernatural. Guess what? NO GREYS!. I decided to lay off the crying for a while. Maybe I’ll continue after my mid sem when I can actually afford to cry. Pathetic but who cares! I need to look after my eyes. I slept for 9 hours and at work today, Barry, Yoyo and VIral made fun of me. I think I should sleep less. Sleeping too much is no good. No good I tell you.

I met a long lost senior today and those who were in Bestari, I MET KELVIN TEH! He came by to order his meal and I decided to try my luck to see if it was really him. IT WAS! IT WAS! It is really good to see a familiar face after so long. I have no idea where are my other seniors but I hope I slowly bump into them one by one along the way. I miss Bestari and Mufy. The blues are stepping in. Better stop before it gets really deep.

Ok, happy post.

Errr.. happy post.

Happy postttt….!!

I KNOW!

A few days back, we went and yumcha with the usual gang. We decided to imitate a few movie posters along the way. So tak jadi. We went to Glen as usual and this time, we played cards. Well, they played cards. But we talk cock all the way la. It is always fun going out with them. They will never never fail to put a smile on your face (but at most time, you will end up laughing your ass off!)

Konon-nya Wang Lee Hom

The one I will always, always, always love.

Kings and Lin

Don’t get me wrong, there is only Ryan Tan Ze Cheung and only him!

Wtf. Wtf.Wtf.

The poster behind was “Superhero movie”. Go figure.

We went and eat at Sofia’s a few later with Owen. We finally had our cravings. Thank you Owen for bringing us. Be nicer to me. Poh Yee, you too! Don’t team up against me (somehow similar to the boifriend and Su Yen). Asssssss.

Ok, picture time!

One happy child. One blissful girl. Loved,cared and fed.

Poh Yee just called and ask if I wanted food, I love my baby.

Tomorrow will be meeting up with the girls for lunch (Kat, you guys can shop but don’t tempt me. I will sepak you) and at night, Priscilla’s baptism! Come and see people! It is an event that you would not want to miss! Sunday.. DIM SUM !! DIM SUM!! DIM SUM!!!!!! (Cheryl, provided if I can get up. )

I miss the Inaian girls. Damn.

I am such a sleepyhead.

I am off to watch my series while waiting for the boi to come online and layan me. (don’t worry, it will not Grey’s!)

p/s: Yen girl, no more shopping! NO more bags and shoes! You scolded me many times and now I am doing the same to you. Kanasai addicts!

Toodles.

Love,

mC

Something that I can only dream of

Nobody wants to live in a world without having their desired people in it. Who wants to live without loving other people and being loved at the same time. I have people who love me and I love the people who are dear to me. I just watched an episode of Grey’s where George’s father died of cancer. How I wish I did not.

A few days ago, it was my daddy’s birthday, he would have been 52 years old. I forgot his birthday till my sister reminded me. I was so scared that I will forget his death anniversary that I totally forgot that it was his birthday. Daddy, happy belated birthday! I know I am late and I am so sorry. Remember that the whole family at home loves you so much and we are missing you each and every single day.

Life is not the same without you.

You have always been the one that sayang me the most and I will always remember how you try to side me and try to make me feel special.

I will always remember how I would always look back at your wedding video with mummy and you would always tell me how proud you are having mummy in your life.

I will always remember the times you would bring food up for me when I was doing my homework.

I will always remember you would quietly ask me to join you to watch F1 when everyone is asleep.

I will always remember remember you feeding me all the dishes you have cooked before serving them out.

I will always remember looking at pictures of you carrying and cradling me so tightly in your arms.

I will always remember you would quietly make up with me after scolding me.

I will always remember the doll house I made you buy for me.

I will always remember you carrying your camcorder around to film us growing up.

I will always remember you taking the effort to record all the shows on tv so that Lennard and I would always be able to watch it whenever we want to.

I would always remember you killing me for writing and colouring your master bedroom wall.

I will always remember you coming to my rescue whenever I am stuck with a computer game.

I will always remember you chasing me around the house just to get me to sit still.

I will always remember all the times you made fun of me when I imitated Doraemon in your car.

I will always remember the times you scolded Koko Tat Wei for bullying me.

I will always remember that very moment where I told you I did well in my exams and you tried so hard to speak. Eventhough you couldn’t talk, I knew what you wanted to say. You shook the bed so hard and I instantly knew how you felt when you teared.

I knew how much you loved me and daddy,

I love you so much.

Daddy, if you were here, mummy would be smiling rather than crying during Ah Kong’s speech on her birthday. Mummy would loved for you to be there and place a big big kiss on her forehead. Mummy would love to dance with you on her special night. Mummy danced with Lennard and mummy was happy. It was so good to see mummy smiling that night.

We visited you a few months back. Did you realise how much we have grown?

Lennard has become a mature young man who can take on responsibilities and he has become a man of focus. He thinks differently and he is no longer the boy who throws trantum. We know that sometimes he has temper issues, but remember who he got them from.. you my dear.

Kimberly has grown so beautifully and she is becoming more and more like you, feature wise. She misses you and sometimes I know when she looks at her friends, she cannot help but wish you were around. I used to be that once. I used to hope that you could come back and be with us. BUT THAT WAS A LONG LONG TIME AGO.

Mummy? Mummy is managing well. We know she still loves you. She refuses to meet other people and she vows to only commit herself to this family and no one else. Your wife cares for you. But sometimes it is just hard for her to show it. Deep down I know she really really misses you and it aches me sometimes to see her that way.

The images kept flashing before me. The morning where I found you. The visiting hours in the hospital. The night where you left us all. The funeral. Every single one of the particular moment was playing before my very eyes. Sometimes I wished it goes away but yet at the same time, I wish it stays forever.

I have not cried over my dad for some time now, even when I visited his grave but that particular episode brought back memories that I never thought I would cry over again. I guess I am not as strong as I think I am.

Your 3 babies.

I am sorry.I actually had a more enthusiastic post that I wanted to post up but due to the episode I am totally out of the mood. I’ll post it up tomorrow. I need a break from the crying. I need to watch another episode of Grey’s!

Damn, tomorrow I have to work. But only for 5 hours!

I feel like wearing a skirt tomorrow.

Cherish the ones you love before its too late.

Crying baby,

mC

The happiness between the lines of sadness

Yesterday was my crying day. I cried in the afternoon, evening and night. I woke up in the afternoon, turned on my computer and decided to finish watching Grey’s Season 2 and those that have watched all the episodes will know which moments I cried for, which moment I laughed at, which moment I would love so much to stick my fits into the screen and punch the hell out of some people. I am a dramatic person when it comes to shows. Yesterday I tried crying and laughing at the same time,and it was not easy! I tried so hard to do one emotion and not let the other take over. But as you can see, so tak jadi.

Nelson, Rahgav and Jon came over and we decided to watch The Guardian. Another crying show. By the end of the show, as you’ve guessed it,

I cried like a pig.

I cried so heavy till I went to bed. Heck, don’t ask me why cause I, myself have no freaking idea what was going with me yesterday. Super emo day due to Grey’s. Thank you very much.Maybe it was the emotions and hormones rushing thru my head, maybe it was the flashback of my life stories, maybe it was the fact that I was missing home and the people around me, maybe it was the instincts I am to follow, maybe it was the fact that somehow I knew tomorrow was going to rain or maybe, just maybe,

I just wanted to cry. Can’t I cry for no reason?*bleh*

Anyway had some prob with the bf but all is well. We found the root of all problems and we were able to solve them. And now we are back to normal, great huh? I love technology. Without technology, I would not be able to talk to Su Yen for 2 hours on Skype and I will unable to webcam with the boyfriend at home. The beauty of webcam and MSN.

NOW

Somehow I know he is going to kill me for putting this up.

THEN

This picture was taken back in Dec/Jan

Heart you loads <3

Apart from that, went and play Mahjong at Cheryl’s and we had fun. We wanted to go to the beach initially but it started to drizzle when we started off our journey. So we decided to go chill at her place. No jellyfish to poke but I get to play with tiles and of course eat junk.

Basically I had fun. Eventho I did not get to enjoy my beach moments but at least I had fun with great company and I came home feeling tired. Anyway, good luck to those having Macro! I fcking hate that test. I am off to bed. I am so sorry that the post today was shorter or less enthusiastic that the other post. It is quite late and tomorrow I have to face Dean Bao. Roar.

Maybe I should ask Cheryl what are plans this week. *hint* *hint*

Alright, I am off to bed. Have a great day tomorrow, everyone!

Night.

Toodles.

Love,

mC

Listening to: Fish Leong – Wo Xi Huan

Mood: Fantastic

After a long long day

I realize I only update my blog at night. So wanna read it?

Only read it before you go to bed.

On the bad side,

I slept at 3 yesterday I think and woke up at 10 something (That is only 7 hours of sleep, AGAIN)

………It is so not cool not being able to sleep for many many more hours! The sunlight killed my beauty sleep. After working for 10 hours straight yesterday I decided to stay home today (sorry Ian for ffking rock climbing! but I was too tired!). Poh and I watched “Brave One” by Jodie Foster and we decided to bake muffins. Muffins from the packet. We both decided to see how good are ready made muffin mix.

The outcome: Horrible (enuff said about the taste)

The chocolate muffins tasted better compared to the poppyseed one. We added melted chocolate and added milo powder. We know we are lazy people but remember we had a long day yesterday and we were too lazy to buy the real ingredients. So muffin mix it was.

Afternoon

Remember the box and I suggest you try others.

Poppyseed and orange

Chocolate.

In the oven.

Baked!

Don’t laugh or mess with our muffins.

Will only be working on Thursday. Didn’t want to work on Monday. I know lazy bum and all, but I wanna laze at home! I wanna catch up on my series! My long lost series! I have 2 more seasons of Grey’s! On another note, it is winter yet? CAN SOMEBODY UPDATE ME ON OUR WEATHER?! We have been having nice warm sunshine everyday. I don’t want blistering windy cold winter to come. So it is winter yet? Tomorrow will be fairly good with light showers. Maybe I should go walking or jogging. Do you think I should?

Loris asked me to go shopping but I was dared to not shop for a month and I AM SO STICKING TO THE DARE! I know I have a of things but hey, girls will always be girls and we tend to pamper ourselves too much, am I rite Kat and Pris (Pris bought 7 perfumes at one go at one time. So, who is the crazy one?). Speaking of them, will be meeting them on the 19th with Susan *hugs*.

Shop.Shop.Shop

We girls need a new activity that does not involve shopping. Any suggestions?

How would any of you define your perfect dream date? Was watching a show and I realize that movies tend to portray the elegance and the exquisite and the excessive spending off cash in creating the perfect dream date. For most girls, I know it involves bringing them to nice classy restaurant and having delicious, fine, mouth watering dishes served right in front of them (my perception thru movies). And how would would you end the night? A simple kiss goodnight on the doorsteps? or would you take it further?

I know most couple in Malaysia end up in Italiannies, Friday’s, Chili’s and other places more fancy. Not that there is nothing wrong. Don’t you find them expensive? Esp on valentine’s day (The roses, present and the food). The only thing I was looking forward to when I went back was the KFC dinner the boyfriend promised me. Speaking of Valentine’s day, what did you guys do on Valentine’s day? I spend it on Lygons with the guys and Poh and of course my baby darling super mega loving boyfriend Ryan – thru webcam of course. Eventhough we are continents apart but somehow when I talked to him that night, it was like he was minutes away from me. Thank you for layaning and keeping me company my dearest. Still waiting for you to come hug me so tightly in Aust! (jumping with joy!). Overdue pictures.

Sesriously, damn classic.

“Hey stay on your side of the portion”

I think Melvin was still hungry.

We were happy!! We had our ice-creams!

Evening

Today, Jon decided to cook pork chops. Plum pork chops. There was a commotion going on int he kitchen. Poh Yee wanted to increase the heat while Jon wanted to cook on slow heat. We had vege, salad and pork chops. The guys has rice. I had bread and Poh Yee had prata. We all decided to eat what we want. I am stuffed and seriously full. Poh Yee just fed me yogurt ( I cannot eat anymore!)

The geek doing his assignment

Porkchops and bakchoy

Our crabmeat salad (we had to finish the crabmeat)

At the moment, we are unsure what we are going to do. We might head down to the beach or we might stay home and stone. The idiot is playing futsal when he is suppose to study for his exam on May 5th. He claimed he is futsal-deprived. Poor guy. Anyway, i am off to watch some series! Have a great weekend everyone!

p/s: I want to a get a PSP; all thanks to Su Yen.

Nites people!

Ryan Tan, I know u are reading my blog. Study!

Hugs and Kisses

mC