I need to grow fatter :)

Despite having classes, people around me never seem to get tired of outings and events.

Phew, I finally can breathe again once more after a hectic week of in and outs of the house down to the city and other places.

I will just post up pictures and hit the sack, I am pretty tired from today’s brunch.

June’s farewell at Stalacties.

Se7en: Angel and Devil

Mount Dandenong

Steven’s BBQ party

Li’s farewell brunch

Damn little pictures, I know.

But I am darn lazy to post them up. So decided to only put a few.

I am off to bed.

Nights.

The embracing of one another

ong Distance Relationship (LDR) may not be in your dictionary but it is definitely in mine and I have to admit that sometimes I DO hate it, really do hate it. But why do I continue having it?

It is because of him, Ryan Tan Ze Cheung.

It is never easy to only hear the voice of your loved one thru phones, msgs and msns whenever you need comfort. When I open my eyes in the morning, I really do hope I am able to embrace the sweet adorable face next to mine. I want to hold hand in hand down the street, laughing and being beside him. I wish to have him around me all the time. I hope to have his hands wrapped around me, hugging me tightly; letting me know that I am never alone and I have someone special to be dependent on.

But it is NOT AS BAD as everyone perceived it to be.

By hearing his voice, I am comforted and he tries to cheer me up whenever I am down (sometimes so tak jadi-ed). Even when I am not able to see him beside me early in the mornings, I am greeted by his messages on msn before he heads of to work (I find that really sweet and adorable). As I am trying to stick to my phone budget, I hardly msg him but I hope he does know that I am notforgetting him and I really do look forward to seeing and talking to him online. Yes we only see each other by webcam-ing but I get really excited when I see him on my screen . I know some of you may find that pathetic but tat is the closes I can get to see him and I really want to see him everyday. He may not be able to hold and kiss me as many of the couples do but when we see each other, I could feel that the kisses were even more special than before. His hugs provided the comfort that I have been longing since I last saw him.

He recently came to Melbourne to see me and I am really glad he did. When he first told me he was coming, I refused to let him come, wanting him to save his money and not waste it on me (of course secretly I really wanted to see him ). But when I saw him at the airport, my heart skipped a beat .

It was exciting to see him dwelling among my friends and having fun too in the process. I really did wanted him to stay longer but sadly he has to return home and I have no idea when will I see him next (I am still not sure if I am going back). As we rolledl his bag out the front door, I couldn’t help but tear and I tried to stop by not looking at him. Whenever I looked at him, I would start crying . I did not look at him until he checked in his bag. We had 18 mins left. We had lunch and we then proceeded to the gate. I finally looked at him and tears started flowing. I am about to leave him. I really did not want to. I couldn’t speak. All I could do was cry and I cried even harder as I saw him walk thru the gate. That was it. That was the last time I would see him in a very long time.

Until today, whenever the memory is played in my head, I never fail to cry.

I really wanted him to stay, I wanted him to be beside me.

*cries*

I still remember the day you first talked to me.

I still remember the day someone told me that I should be with you (righty and lefty).

I still remember the day you first came to my house.

I still remember the day you confessed to me.

I still remember the Christmas I spent with you in Italiannies.

I still remember the flowers you first bought for me.

I still remember the first fight we had.

I still remember the times you came to keep me company eventho you had stocktake the next day.

I still remember you meeting my family and friends on New Year’s eve.

I still remember the times you came all the way to KL to fetch me.

I still remember the movies we watched.

I hope to continue remembering tall the things above in the many months to come.

HAPPY 7th MY DEAREST!

Look at cheeky Cherina behind .

I hope in the months to come, we will be stronger than we are now. I love you my dearest and I cannot wait to have u in my arms again!

Hold on to me, for always .

As for now, quickly come back from dinner and skype with me .

p/s: Walking in the dark having raindrops on your head is not fun.

I am off to watch scrubs.

Nights.

It turned out pretty well :)

*He slams newspaper on table*

*I decided to run towards the table*

“As of today, we will know what will happen to……”

MICHELLE CHEAM, WAKE UP!

WILLIAM WONG IS HERE!

Great, I was into a deep dream with political issues being discussed and I was woken up because William came to get us. Anyway, bathed and quickly drove off to Clayton where we did our shopping for the big dinner tonight. We bought 2 kgs of CHICKEN WINGS, 2 kgs of RIBS and 1.5kg of pork shoulder (a woman was quite shocked when William and I bought the meats from the butcher ).

Why you ask?

We were going to make Bah Kuh Teh, Fried Chicken, Veges and Tong Yuen. We were all excited but it was only 12 plus when we were done with the groceries.

*grin*

Thinking what to do for the rest of the day, we decided to just chill at Knox City and meet up with Kings. We ended up watching a movie and by the time the movie was done, it was nearly cooking time! We headed home and everyone started becoming busy while the guys just chilled and they were playing with their PS2s and comp games. Susan came home and decided to take a nap while Lin came in later to make the tong yuen.

Rolling flour into small balls is actually fun when you have people to do it with. Seeing them rolling into different sizes, you will guarantee laugh my friend! We cooked one whole big pot of bah kuh teh and apparently there was not enough space to put ALL the ingredients in. So, to improvise, we soaked the TauFu pok into the soup for a while and took them out to serve on a plate.

Conclusion? The dinner was a big success ! Everyone enjoyed themselves and it seemed like everyone had fun (which I think they actually really did). To end the night, we cramped up in William’s room to watch Shutter (eng version). I would recommend people to watch the Thai one. It is more original and the ghost is much more creppier than the Eng one. Plus the storyline is much more appealing and the casts (including the ghost) were just better. I know I am being biased but do I look like I care?

I found a very nice badge in William’s room and I decided to take it (well, he gave it to me knowing why I wanted it so badly).

If you know me well, you will know why I wanted the badge

I am going to watch an episode of That’s 70’s Show (yeah , just got it from them today). I am still sick and I am having my monthly visits. I will see if I wanna post up today’s dinner. I am at the moment, SUPER LAZY and tomorrow will be going down to the city with py, so I think I shall quickly watch my episode and hit the sacks, yo!

p/s: IT SPELLS OUT MY NAME, MICHELLE CHEAM AI CHING!

Nights.

Current mood: Super duper mega pissed!

Currently listening to: Star Mile

Can the rain stop, pretty please?

*grins*

From the tittle above, many of you can guess that it has been raining cats and dogs lately which caused me to fall sick. I am down with fever, cough, the flu and sore throat. Today at uni, I managed to sneeze and cough simultaneously. It was quite painful but it was pretty cool! (and of course I looked ugly).

How did I “try” to cure myself? Since the uni was giving out free coke zero and according to Aunty Jen, it kinna helps with the throat… or was it the nose? Well, it was either one and I decided to just grab one each day and chug them down eventho they tasted a bit weird. Well its free, so who cares.

Yesterday, planet uni had a gathering and people started asking me which UL i am in. Being unable to asnwer, Jono decided to tell the world that I was in Peggen’s, then Hui Li’s and now I am no where to be seen. Sad huh? Will start picking my habit of going to church this year.

Btw, Ryan left last Tuesday and sigh, I miss him being around for me to kacau, scold and be bullied. Sigh, Now it is back to webcaming and late nights on the telephones. 5 more months and hopefully I get to see everyone again.

Now it is back to seeing my bf on the screen again . Sigh. Sigh.

May promised me many many trips around Malaysia (we are still not earning yet, so we only travel within the country). Super kiam right?

Oh I am trying to get into the habit of…..

NOT SHOPPING!

(I am damn serious about this.)

Don’t laugh.

On an angry note: (I am seriously angry, wtf) Seriously, some people should just mind their bloody business and not try to think they can ruin people’s life by making them miserable. They think what they wanna think and as a result, they might say out the wrong things that might lead to serious damage. Damn it.

Mind you own fucking business you assholes. (It was long since I typed all these)

I am unable to think straight now, I need to lie down but I am going out for steamboat soon, yummmmmm.

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Back from steamboat with my tummy all filled up , here are some pictures of my lovely dinner and my mini coke zero! and some random photos I managed to find on my desktop

My current bestie

real taste = crappiest taste

I wanna drink with Ryan again!

Why my thumb so short?

Tong Yuen!

Taro Pancake

I cannot wait for Friday to come, where we sit and cramp up in William’s room. Trashing his stuff and taking over his tv.

Maybe I should spread my sickness to all of them since i love them so so much, no?

I like this picture of all of us. Like all damn busy and damn chat kepoh.

Ok, off to mandi before Ryan comes back from futsal to find me still in my jeans. I really need my meds, I feel as tho the world is on my shoulders and my nose is driving me nuts.

Oooooo, I bought Oreos and of course Peanut Butter and Milk to go with it.

Nights people, anddd…

ZOHMYGOSH, I forgot I am suppose to work tomorrow.

DAMN!

Hopefully nothing falls into customer’s plates.

Road trip up? or was it down?

The weather is awful, cold and windy and wet!

Plus, yesterday I did not get the sleep I desired so badly. Having to work from 12 to 9 and after watching Exorcist, I dreaded for a nice sleep but sadly, it was one of the worst nights of my life apart from a 2 hour sleep before my property paper.

I know the blog has been abandoned for a while now (due to busy-ness and laziness) but I am trying to get back to blogging. Well Ian quoted,

—Ian— says (5:12 PM):
dats like the 3million time u said dat

I will keep my word and I will start blogging back again! You’ll see people.

The holidays were great but short. 3 weeks and now I am back in Uni again. Nevertheless, we had fun and I managed to go to Philip Island after a very long time. 3 cars went up and the drivers were Philip, Nelson and William with a total of 9 other passengers who i guess made some of their drivers miserable.

The hungry bunch in desperate need of food

Kingsley with his finger

William

Philip . Nelson . William

Stopped by Paddy’s for a lil choc

The Jetty

Poh Yee!

Yes, he came for me!

Koalas

Kangaroos

Hiding the food from our fellow emu.

Philip Island’s penguins!

Girls

Guys

All of us

The End.

There were a few more activities but I think this shall do for the day. I cannot stand the fact that I have to choose one picture by one picture to post them up. Too much clicking and my eyes hurt just staring at the screen.

Alright, I am off to watch something in my comp. Oh btw, was chatting with the dearest just now and i once again wanna wish her a very happy birthdayyyyyyy.

Happpy birthdayyyyyy my deareast SU YEN!

awww, ain’t she adorable.

Yeah, right

mC

What does it really mean?

Ever felt like things are not going your way?

Ever felt as though life is just unjust and unfair?

Ever felt that what you have been building so far just disappeared in a blink of an eye?

When a problem comes up, we think the worst of everything and not knowing what to do, we take the easy way out; all in all, we just wanna comfort ourselves by just merely solving the issues. I read June’s blog and I realise too I wanna be a diff person, a better person. A person who has better morals and ethics (not being funny k!). Having to change on how I see things and never judging anything before I actually know what I am judging. I tend to look at life at the negative side at times, thinking that the world is not what it is suppose to be. At the end of the day, we decided how OUR world should be. We determine who we want to be, who we choose to be and who we will become in the future.

A few days back, after showering, I sat on my black comfy chair and suddenly I felt a deep emotion stepping in and in mere seconds, it felt as tho something was pulling my heart, making it heavy and triggering points that were not suppose to be triggered in the first place. I didn’t know what was wrong but all I knew was I was feeling the shittiest feeling on earth (no such word, who cares!). May talked to me but all I could do was cry. I really had no idea what was wrong with me but all I could do was cry (I laughed and cried at the same time, seriously, try it and lets see how you handle the stress….). I did not want anyone to help me, I did not want any comfort, I just wanted things to be how they should be and I wanted the feeling to go away cause to me, i was living my life each day like how I am suppose to. Bear in mind, the next day I had my period.

After the next day, I came to realise why I was cried. I felt alone. I felt so alone. It is not that I have no one. I have amazing close friends that I can lean on, a wonderful family who would give the world to me and an amazing bf who teaches me to look at things positively. It was just that I felt as tho everything has left me. Every single one that is close to me just decided to pack their bags and leave me be. Slowly, I tell myself that things are not that bad. I have people around me who wants the best for me and is always there to help me whenever I am down. I thank each and every single one of them.

As I learn to push away the thought, I see myself smiling and laughing again. It is great to be yourself and let the probs of the world take its course and leave. Obviously, I was still dwelling on the feeling but it came to a complete stop when the line, “NOTHING WORTH HAVING COMES EASY” caught my attention. It is seriously a very helpful line. It applies to everything in our lives, even it means us having to change for the better. We have to work towards what want to build. Friendship, career, relationships and our own individual well-being.

That was then I decided to leave all the small things in the world behind and open up to be a much more better person. I am learning to trust people alil more deeper and opening up to them more and slowly believing that they will always be there for me no matter wat the circumstances are. Appreciating life as I continue to live in it and be grateful for each blessings. Having to not look at every problems as though the world is going to end anytime soon. Drama i know but, CHANGING!

This post is dedicate to every single person who has always been there for me, helping me thru my deepest time of needs, telling me that life is always not how it always seems to be, changing me for the better, being there to just listening to me ramble about stuff, knowing how to cheer me up, knowing my fave foods and the small small things I like in life and of course last but not least, thank you all for being patient with me.

I love you all to bits and I will never trade it for anything else in the world.

To a special someone:

p/s: Hang in there babe, I know all hope seems dim but believe that there is still hope. We are all just a call away. We will always be with you and we will help you thru your hardship. Don’t give up on anything yet. Be strong and continue to fight.

p/p/s: The pictures are chosen randomly, please don’t be offended if you are not in! I am so sorry but I have no time to go thru one by one! I only picked the ones that I remember the most! Sorry!

I need to study. Been staying on the comp since afternoon!

Mcd so tak jadi-ed!

So will be staying in.

Toodles.

A lil me inside me?

Ok, today I decided to type something in regards to me as an individual! Truth be told, not many people actually know me inside out and to those that can, I thank you for trying! I guess I did grow up pretty sternly by my parents and after my dad left us, I took after my mother (not that is a proud thing). It is enough to get me thru life but it kinna makes me look heartless in a way. I remember me keeping everything inside at one point and not wanting to voice out how I actually did feel but rather pretend to be happy and say things that I am actually not feeling. Stupeeed rite? But last time, you will try not to look sad and pathetic (I really don’t want any pity from anyone and being in Form 2, all I could think was, LIVE THRU LIFE TO THE FULLEST). So I told myself that I NEED to keep everything inside.

I guess that brings me here typing this particular post. Someone told me that I should be more open and more caring to others. Really? Am I that bad? They say I don’t show it. OMG. The first person that came to my head was my mother. I am becoming like her. Well, that is what I think, I am not blaming or saying anything bad about my mother. I still remember in my first year, I felt that my mother didn’t care (homesick la frennnnnnn) and I cried silently in my room. Loris and Yee Lyn came in and started comforting me. Truth be told, I was actually feeling weird that they did it. Cause I normally keep my troubles and my blues to myself. But on the other hand, it kinna shows how caring they can be! Thank yous darls!*hearts**hearts* And I remember me leaving to stay in Clayton, we all cried quite heavily, well only me and Loris but yeah, it was werid at the same time touching. I have to get used to it!

So being a lil secretive about her private life is a bad huh? I mean not in total private, private but rather miss “troubled inside” is bad huh? Even PY can tell how I express myself to people. She said I am the type that does not show that I care. Sad huh? Why do I act this way? Why can’t I open up more? I really don’t know but all I know is I don’t mean to show that I don’t care in any way and I am sorry to those that actually felt it! I really didn’t mean to. Sigh. I want people to know that I am always here eventho I don’t ask them directly what is wrong with them. I don’t normally do that. I very shy to ask in case, it triggers the crying spot which I really don’t know how to handle. So, better give me a heads up before u tear k, I don’t want to stand there and trying to look for words to comfort. But at most times, I keep quiet and only voice out certain things. I is the scared that he/she might cry more. Senso tau!

Ok, I am done with my “ME” post and I will move on to other things.

Exams are near and sei lo, I am no where near ready. Chilling and slacking really hits u kao kao when u even choose to just relax for a while! Will start studying properly soon. Those that deny they studied or is studying, lei hei sei la! Bollocks la u all! After exams, PARTYYYYYYYYYYY! Oh wait, the boifren coming! And so far WOOHOO, banyak trips sial. I am going to be broke in June. The poor boifren is going to be lagi broke when he comes here! Anyone wants to go Sydney in JULY? Mummy is coming down . I miss my mother. What else, OMG OMG OMG OMG.

Skiing.

Sight-seeing.

Dinners.

Luncheons.

Breakkies.

Drinking.

Chilling.

And the most UPSETTING part, the darlings will be going to Thailand and this Li is going to be with Sha and the rest and they are going to webcam with me. To make me feel so jealoussss sial oh-so-better! But all in all, I miss them loads. Seriously. When all of us chat, it feels like we are all talking face to face! I know Li is here and I do find the comfort of talking to her, esp when she layans me!

Should I keep my long hair or cut it short again?

Should I perm it or leave it as it is?

Choices; Choices

Ok, I am off !

Nights!

mC

Sometimes, I wonder

The pain comes on and off,

I think I might be sick, somehow.

Kings and Py said I will be fine,

But being the paranoid person I am.

I should go and see a doctor.

TOUCH WOOD

For all I know, it might be nothing.

Ok, off to have dinner! Take care people!

No updates today.

Seriously, can missing home be anymore worst?

They planning to go Thailand.

WTF. So WTF

- Nothing will ever be the same again -

mC

Now, I am bored.

Nah, not bored. Just couldn’t think of the perfect title for this post. Anyway today I will be talking about relationships.. why? Not because I am having a prob with Ryan (I love him to bits!) but rather I am being surrounded by interesting stories. Hmmm. Well not really interesting but rather stories that I keep on hearing over and over again.

Ok, do you agree with me when I say that some girls are over sensitive?

(pls, don’t whack me. This is an honest opinion).

Well, maybe not sensitive but rather a bit emotional?

Ok, I should stop before I get mouthfuls from people around me.

For those that are in a relationship (including myself of course), don’t you ever feel as tho the other one has done not enough? Truth be told, I think Ryan has done more than enough but I know sometimes I expect him to do the impossible (I do say sorry k or think twice before saying it). Some girls think that guys are mind readers, asking them to read the signs and expression on our faces. Come on, face the fact that most guys have no idea what we are trying to tell them whenever we tell them things indirectly. Well, I would rather say that they are straight forward. They kinna do wat we say not thinking that there are more to it. I won’t blame them, they are not superman, they are just them, they are just guys. And girls, I know sometimes they do things without taking into account how we feel. We are a bit more gentle and subtle but they are more aggressive and more laid back. Well no one is wrong and no one is right. There is not wrong or right in a relationship.

I just got back form an outing and I heard a few stories and sometimes, we, both the guy and the girl can say harsh things without even realising it. It will be painful but hey sometimes people just say the wrong things, don’t they? For those that is still unsure where the heck is my bf, HE IS IN KL PEOPLE. M-A-L-A-Y-S-I-A. Don’t ask me anymore or so help me, I will kick you!. Long distance is never easy,  I am having one with Ryan, I really try not to put myself in a position that I will regret at the end of the day. It is already killer enough to be apart and now things are going to be worst with some small nonsensical issue that need not even exist in the first place? I try to avoid. I never said that Ryan and I are perfect. We do fight but we fight because of real issues. Real issues that requires a decision at the end of the day. Well, it has been awhile since we did that (not tat I am hinting that it will happen soon k).

All in all, I think both parties should compromise and no one should literally take control of the whole relationship. It is between 2 people. Not one on one. So, please think twice before starting something. Think if it is worth quarelling or rather just let the “itch” fade away.

Ok, the above was rather my opinion and I am not saying directly to anyone in particular k. Please jangan terasa, can?

OK, enough of the ramblings. Pichas time.

Classic faces of Kings and WIlls

Hungry! Hungry!

I like this picture of the four of us! Ok la. The picture is not complete.

I know la, some of you must be thinking, “why same people over and over and over again?”. Too bad, we is the sayang them alot so cannot ar?! They paling layan us when we need teman and how do they do it?

By blasting loud ass Techno in King’s car.

Ok, I am off to bed now. Quite tired. I miss the boifren. BOYFREN, WHERE ARE YOU?

Just kidding.

I miss him tho, seriously.

And of course the babes in KL.

Grrrr, just found out that Li is staying with SHA! (she tried to ask me to go back with her)

Nights!

mC

Updates! Updates!

With so much to do and so little time left, I am left with 3 people laughing and kidding around during pension’s meeting and me wanting to shop. Woohhoo. I realise it was long since I updated. Nothing much have been happening apart from work and uni and yumcha and chilling sessions.

Fine, will go in a little deeper k?

The big Yes-es

• I finally bought something I was eyeing for sometime now
• I finally watched a movie in HOYTS after so long (Py is much more worse than I am)
• I am being pampered by my mum and my bro (they are overseas, don’t ask how we do it)
• Southpark
• I is going to SYNDEY and PHILIP ISLAND during June (pls, dun ffk!) and skiing and sight seeing (i think)
• People are coming down to Melb in June (dances like an idiot)
• I bought Hot Chocolate to keep me warm during winter.
• Cookies and junks make Py and myself happy
• Yen girl ( don’t ask why, but I have my reasons)
• Yumcha sessions at night to take my mind off things

The big No-es

• I have a freaking ulcer
• The weather is cold
• My toe boo boo is not healing
• I am not drinking enough water
• I have too little shoes
• I am having stomach pains that are on and off (sigh)
• I think I have an incurable diseases (touch wood!)
• Big big mess in my room
• Insufficient cupboard space

Did I miss anything? I will update another time with more details k? I just came home and would like to wash up and drink Hot Choc. MMMMMM…..

Just a picture to show ya all that I am doing alrite in the midst of all busy-ness of life.

Ok, I am off to watch South Park.

Nites people.

p/s: sorry about the short post. I am quite tired.

mC